The Escape

Oh hell. I never should have tried it. And now I want what I can't have at the moment. I joined chemistry.com. I feel that I'm ready to meet someone now.

Before I got sick, I was still runnin from from relationships. But while I was sick, I was scared. Very, very scared. I was continuously sick and I had no idea why. And with the swine flu running rampant, I had a reason to be. At least ten peple have died in a hundred mile radious of me of the swine flu. When I fnally went to the ER, that was the first thing they checked for. And I was grateful for that. It put me at ease. Though finding out that I got pneumonia from a 2yo wasn't the best news either. lol.

So back to the subject at hand... I joined and got a few matches. No, no, hell no, and no, is what I kept saying. Some were possibilities. And then there was one that stood out. Whom I really want to meet. I move to click the "definately" button and suddenly remembered that this was a pay site. And at the moment, I just can't afford to suscribe to it. At least not till after Christmas. Crap. Such is my life...

Did I mention that I missed ya'll?

Hey guys! Hows it going? Ive been MIA for quite some time. Life has def. been a roller derby. Main reason: I've been sick. For 15weeks.

Sinus infection.
Flu.
Still have a sinus infection.
Bronchitus. Sinus infection
Bronchitus. Pneumonia.

Everything was back to back. The sinus infection lasted about 4wks before I was healed. Flonase and the Z pack worked wonders. The Z pk was suppose to clear up my bronchitus as well. Surprise! It didn't. And I didnt realise that it was suppose to. I thought the z pk was just for my sinus'. So I had Bronchitus the rest of the time. I took tons and tons of Robutussin DM Max. And most times, I would cough so hard and long, it felt like my brain was exploding. My doc told me it was because I was cutting the oxygen from my brain off at times. F.U.N.

The cherry on top was when this little girl came into my work place and threw up. She was 2yrs. This happened the sunday before this past sunday. Less than an hour later, I was throwing up uncontrollably and had to leave work early. Got home and still uncontinued to throw up constantly. Tried sleeping it off. Couldn't. My body was singing a tune I never heard before. My body was whistling off key. Out loud.

I have always counted myself to be among the lucky ones. I'm hardly ever sick. I sick about once a year with the flu or a bad cold. Never had to be hospitalised for being sick. So I thought I must be doing something right. Boy was I wrong!

Finally, about 4am, I called for the paramedics. I couldn't breath. As soon as they hooked me up to the Oxy tank, my headach left. I would still cough but the ever present headach had finally left me.

After running tests and bloodwork and hooking me up to an IV, the ER doc told me I had pneumonia and were admitting me. I was there for 3 days. And now I"m so much better! Doc is afraid I might become asthmatic after being sick for so long and having bd allergies, that he presribed me albuterol inhalors.

And now I'm afraid I'll have to back out of my fests that I signed up for. This BITES! I have nothing written. Well maybe I can write for one of them.

A few weeks ago I told yall about my unexpectant asthma attack. Well I finally saw a doctor about it. What I did was, I openned the phonebook and started requesting to speak to different doc's. He was the only one that called me back. Though he couldn't tell me about my condition until he could properly diagnose me. Something about legalities... blah blah blah! But he told me that his office would work with me financially. So I finally got to see him friday. And low and behold... he's young! And handsome. Immediately I was embarrassed. I smelled like chicken. Just got off of work at the store. I had flour all over me and my legs weren't shaved. UGH! I was totally a mess! Anywoo, he said I do have GERD (Gastroesophageal Reflux Disease)and prescribed me the generic of zantac, prescription strength. He told me it isn't going to cure me but it turns the acid, before it reaches my throat, into water. There won't be anymore damage to my throat. I was lucky that infection hadn't set in, he says. But my throat is damaged. It'll take a few more weeks before I'm completely healed on that front. He also prescribed me prescription strenth clariton for my massive allergies.

Thank god for walmart and their $4 meds!!!

Please tell me I'm not the only one that find the UFC erotic?? Please tell me I'm not alone in that regard. Those men are something else. All that rubbing, bodies glistening, and hugging is enough to get a gal like me all hot and bothered. And then one even cried and I cried too. Too fucking hot! lol I'm wierd, I know!

Is this not the grossest thing ever? *shakes head* Just disgusting!


lmao!!

So I was going through some old posts of mine and came across a meme from two years ago! It was roundabout this time of year where we all were signing up for fests. I thought I would repost it. Maybe it will help out the person who has my prompt.

Pairings:
Slash – Snape/Harry, Snape/Bill, Harry/Bill, Harry/Twins, Severus/Remus, Draco/Neville, Severus/Hagrid, Severus/Albus

Het – Minerva/Albus, Ron/Hermione, Luna/Neville

Threesome – Snape/Harry/Bill, Snape/Harry/Remus, Harry/Remus/Neville,

Characters (Gen) – None really... I don't ever remember reading gens.

Dislikes: Harry/Ginny, Harry/Hermione, Snape/Draco, Anyone/Giant Squid especially!!!!!!!

Kinks: Bottom!Snape, Rimming, bath sex, Chan, chan!!! Plot, realism, First time, H/C, time travel, cross-dressing, light bondage, AU, tenderness, wall!sex, flirtation, courtship/seduction, exploring, obsessive love (I love this so much...I love it when they are so caught up in themselves that they forget all else, or ends up hurting someone else!!), post-Hogwarts, post-war, unusual locations, unusual post-Hogwarts careers, redemption, realistic happy endings, hopeful endings, Slytherin plots and motives, public or semi-public sex, food smut, sex toys, threesomes, Dom!Harry (but only if he's 17 and up)M!Preg, watersports, non-magic (AU), beastiality (werewolves and Padfoot!sex), Long stories

Squicks: GIANT SQUID!SEX (I can't make that any clearer! lol) Centar!Sex, short stories, Draco/Harry, Sappy!Severus

I'd rather not have a story that is HBP and DH complient please. *grr* They killed off Severus... *ahem* Post Hogwarts is fine. I like flash backs to the war if it must be included. I like stories where the relationship is being built. That's why with the prompt I gave, its so very important for them to express their feelings. I don't expect a Sappy!Sev, but a truly happy one at the end is a must.

I'm in desperate need of a powwow partner! Panicking over my prompt! How can I add spice to something thats been done over and over again without sounding redundent? I love the prompt, its just that I'm at a standstill. Everytime I write something, it vaguely sounds familiar. And triceybabe does not plagerize! If interested, please hit me up @ y!m: tirakellci . I need you mystery powwow partner.

In case ya'll haven't heard, Disny has gone back to the old ways. Thank god. I'm so fed up with those computer animated fimls. They aren't the same at all. Anyways, the difference is.. the color of this new princess' skin. She's black. You won't believe the huge buzz thats going on about it! Well maybe, you will. People are so fucked up. Anyways, the film looks like its goin gto be really good. There's all the classic disney things... music, romance, and magic. There's a princess and an evil adversary that seems to be all powerful. Its got all the classic elements. I'm looking froward to seeing this adaptation of one of my favorite tales. Here's the trailor for you.

Hey whats going on? Is there some kind of boycott that im not aware of? In the previous years, we were considered lucky if we got our names in the fest. Usually by the third day, the spots were filled up. This year is a little wierd. Anyways, snarry holidays is still have signups. Sign up, folks. Please?

ETA I'm not trying to be obnoxious. I'm genuially cunfuzled.

Snarry holidays have begun! Go sign up people. Gonna be an awesome fest this year!

How is it, that a girl that has never had a history of asthma, suddenly has an asthma-like attack? I was startled awake when my body decided that it didn't want to breath. End of story. No air in, no air out. 2 SOLID minutes of struggling to breath. It was the worst feeling in the world. And frankly, quite tramatic. My body wouldn't do what I was telling it to do. I cried after the experience was over. It was so scary. And I literally felt my tubes opening up to breath. I've never heard such gasping in my life! It was harsh, painful, and ugly. Then my body decided that I hadn't been punished enough and up come almost completely digested food and stomach acid all mixed up. Luckily I was in the bathroom already. Anyways, I give props for the people that live with this scare daily. Yall are way stronger than I. I just had to get that out. I was still shaking from the experience and I've finally calmed down.

Is it wierd that I ADORE Drop Dead Diva?

Btw, hi guys. How is everyone? I've been lurking behind the scenes, doign mostly reading. Hardly any writing unfortunately. I think one story a year is good enough. Hopefully I haven't missed any snarry signups for xmas yet. And if I still have time, please kindly point me in the right direction. I've also been reading like mad, Star Trek, stories. Before the new movie, I was like, eww, trekkie fiction. Mainly because I can't get the look of Shatner out of my head. It isn't because he's big, I would be such a hypocrite if that is so. Its just that Shatner is ugly. Period. His attitude rubs me massively the wrong way. Its UGLY. But now we were given lovely new boys to drool over so I'm ok now. lol. McCoy rox my world. lol.

Oh! We are moving up in life now. lol. No longer live in the projects. LMAO. Daddy says, we are no longer hood rats. Now we're trailor trash! lol Sometimes I hate him. lol. Its three as big as the apt we were in. 3bedrooms/2full baths.A laundry room in the home. And a huge kitchen. I am loving it so much. I have space to move finally.

I've been at the store for a year and a half now and I finally got a raise. Yep. Only because of Obama though. And guess what the store owner did... Yep, you guessed it... Cut my freaking hours!! So I'm still making as much as I was before the change. I just can't fucking win.

Anyways, thats about it.

PS... When the HELL is the I!Carly phase is going to end. I hate the show!

7:30 I"m watching the BET Awards show right now. I wish they had used Monique again. For some reason I prefer her to Jamie Foxx. Tonight I"m not really up to his type of humor. There's something bittersweet about tonights show and they needed a host that will flow with the various moods. NeYo just got done performing, and I'll be damned if I didn't start crying then and there. I can't help but think, "Damn... Micheal Jackson made him." Its just a wierd moment. Maybe I'm PMSing.

7:38 Why Jamie, why?? Your voice is too damn good to be using a freakin automan!! WTH! Pretty good performance when you're not trying to impersonate Micheal! lmao Yeah... it was that bad.

8:02 Beyonce 0.o whoa. I"m not sure whether or not I liked this performance. Something strangely off about it. But when she started singing, In the Arms of an Angel, I had to sigh. It was a beautiful version of the song.

(PS: Insanejournal is still down at this time so i"m typing this all out of wrdpd. Otherwise it will be one big entry. But since its down, i'm writing things down as i see it and think it. Please forgive the mumble jumbleness of it.)

8:13 Mary-Mary!!! LOVE THEM!! Queen Latifa rapping once more, whats up girl!!!!! ANd swiping Foxx's the music, Blame it on the Alcohol, was a good move. Go girls!

8:22 Zoe Saldana and Nichelle Nickles... what? On the same stage? I'm in heaven. That woman still looks so damn good!!! The wo look good next to one another.

8:24 Keri Hilson looks damn hot!! I dont know why she's so attractive to me though.

8:26 *sigh* Jamie is singing... really singing! NeYo as well. This is a beautiful fangirl moment for me. It should be illegal for these two to be singing together.

8:30 Keith Sweat?! OMG OMG!!!!!! Where has this man been most of my freakin life!!!!!! GUY!! AAAHHH!!! Bell Biv DeVOE!!!!! OMG!!!! Sent me straight to my childhood!!!!! Great early nineties mix of songs. LOVED IT!!!!!!!!!! THat girl is poison!!!



9:17 Total happiness. A tribute to the wonderful O Jays. Trey Songz, Johnny Gill, and Tyrese. Tyrese singing is as excelllent as always. Tyrese is the handsome black man in Transformers. For those who don't know, he's quite the singer. Had a huge career in the late 90's.



9:33 Just goes to show you that age ain't nothing but a number. These three men are still rocking out, are still singing, and are still looking damn good. Keep rocking out, OJays.

10:15 Maxwell made me wet just a bit. I"m so glad he has another album coming out.

Hey ya'll. Just wanted to share one of my fave music videos of Micheal with ya'll. Its called Librarian Girl. Its not one of his most known songs but definately one of my faves.

Rest in peace Farrah Fawcett and Micheal Jackson.

Sethen is still in a coma. They had to give him powerful medicine that not only tranquilized him but literally PARALYZED him to keep his brain from getting stimulated. Other than that, nothing else has changed. The funeral for his friend was held last thursday. And thats all I can say. Ranting and boohooing all over the place is not going to bring min out of a coma or his friend back to life. Thankyou guys for all your prayers. Please keep praying for him... and his family.

I've got pics! Pics from a pretty good night. My mom just turned 42 this past Saturday. She looked totally gorgeous in her black and red outfit. We went to Brewsters in Corpus Christi. ITs a resturant/bar. That night's entertainment was a piano show. The guys are so much fun. I wish I had video of it. Its just the piano player(Russel) and the drum player(Mikey). But trust me... they are more than enough. They sung everything from oldschool music, to Down with the sickness by disturbed, to Nine inch Nails, I want TO Fuck You Like An Animal. It was a good show. ANd they love that me and mommy don't miss a single show. THey know us by name and play every single song we request. ANd they love that we spent mommy's bday with them. They bought us shots as well.



SOme new pics of myself.

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God! What an exhausting five day period. I just want to sleep and sleep.

My godkids were with me day and night for the past few nights. Their mother was out of town at a family emergency. Her nephew was in a car wreck. A drunk teen hit the car he was in. Sethen(nephew) was in the car with two other people. He and the driver was not wearing their seatbelts and they were thrown out of the car into the freeway. The driver died instantly. The third person only had monor injuries. He was wearing a belt. Sethen is still in a coma. The accident happened on friday. Bobbi called me, completely hysterical. And with good reason. After she finally told me what happened, I offered to keep the kids while she went to be with the family.

It was horrible. So horrible what happened. Seth is not in the clear yet. But its promising. He suffered massive brain trauma and he will never be the same again. He's 22. So fucking young and stupid. FUCK!! HOw hard is it to use a GODDAMNED seatbelt. Just pull and click. Not that hard people. Wear a belt, you might just save a life... your own! I'm just mostly angry. I hate what a moment of idiocy can do to a whole family. If they had had on their belts, they wouldn't have been thrown, and the driver might still be alive, and Seth might just have broken an arm or someing, instead of breaking his damn skull!!!