The Escape

You know how I know the world is doomed...? When my friend has to sit down at the kitchen table with her 8year old daughter and force her to eat. Not the kind of "i hate brocolie" type of thing... its the "I'm fat" type thing. The girl is skinnier than a four year old I know... and she's skinny! And the 8yo is complaining that she's fat. What the HELL has come over the states that size is the top thing on an 8yo's mind? Instead of promoting sizes they should be promoting healthy eating and excercize to keep the heart pumping, to fight diabetis, to lesson chances of cancer. NOT promoting that SIZE is the most importanat and that the only time they're going to get a man is if they are a size 2, which nowadays is now the size 10.

I'm no where near what I should be. I'm pretty chunky. But I'm dieting and working out not because of the size, I want to be HEALTHY. Thats the only reason. Losing weight is a plus too... but mainly, I just want to be healthy and live a long life.

Hmm... The fitness fanactics know what they are talking about. Exercising does feel good. Really, really good, actually. I'm still so angry over the injustice of me losing my job, I really threw myself in working out today. Anger is an amazing motivator, as I was just telling wl551 today. But you know... as I was working out... my anger just melted away. At the end, I was smiing. Hurt like a bitch but smiling. I hope I can keep up with it. lol I'm goign to tell it, Tressa!! wl551 and I were talking a cople weeks ago about how we were not happy with our bodies. We're both pretty ample. And I told her that I really wanted to meet her but I wouldn't cause I'm ashamed with how I look right now... she confessed the same thing to me. So we made a loose pact and decided we'll talk about it again a year from now and see how it goes. She really is my best friend. Ok... enough mush now! So lets just say, I think I can keep up with this promise I make myself. I want to lose 85lbs by this time next year.

ETA Any health tips you guys have that you will share? Food and whatnot. I can't really buy hardcore diet food. That shit is expensive! lol I told her, the less food the box have, the more it costs! lol